November 17, 2009

Cha cha cha changes

For the longest time my life was always the same. The only thing that would be different was my schedule at school. Day in and day out I was a teller, a student, and a friend to the same group of people.

For the past two years I feel as my surroundings (people and places) and the person I am are constantly changing.

My group of friends drastically changed. I no longer hang out with them due to that group being a huge source of drama. We all changed too much and grew apart. But because of this change I feel that I am more able and comfortable to be myself than ever before.

I moved into a different apartment in a better area.

I ended a very long relationship and started a new one. The new one is the best one yet with someone who takes such awesome care of me. He was the start of being comfortable with being me. He is very understanding and doesn't judge. It makes him happy to see me change and grow. I love that about him.

I also recently decided to join roller derby. That alone will take up a lot of time but it also means new friends and experiences.

Sadly soon my current relationship will end for the time being. He is heading out on the road to perform and travel. It's something he wants to do and is very excited for, but I'm not ready to join him. That means I may not even see him for as long as a year if he doesn't make it over here to the east coast to visit. We both are going to go through a lot of growth and change. It will be interesting to see the result for both of us and to see if we can happily be together again. I love him dearly and the 28th of this month is going to be rough. It hurts to think of him being gone. Thankfully I have amazing friends. They may be in CT but they will be there to help me along.

Even though it's not easy I've found change to be good for me. It's a start to a new you at every turn. No matter the stress it causes it seems to usually be a good thing for me. I'll just have to power through the tough changes.


  1. I'm glad you have your CT friends. =) I wish you the best in the coming days!

  2. Change is often times uncomfortable but it's always good for you. Change is needed for growth. I can relate with what you're going through, I went through a similar situation three years ago... but I always think that if it's meant to be you'll find your way back to each other again. I did, now we're still together - even though it took about a year and a half apart to get it right. Hang in there! Hugs!

  3. Yeah. That's pretty as I have figured and how we've discussed it together. It helps a lot that we communicate so well so this is a less tragic situation for both of us. I'm happy that he gets to do what he truly adores and I could never hold him back.